ok yesterday i had my first driving lesson… and the thing was i hated it! i was getting everything and then as soon as i turned the car on i froze, i was just about managing the gears (only stalled once) and i thought i would alot more. but i could’nt steer to save my life! i kept crossing my arms and just gripping the wheel so tight he could’nt move it!. i just come back and felt like crying. my twin sister is also lerning and she went before me, she got everything better than me, which is alright i know were individuals, used to it. i dunno, i want to do this soo much! but i don’t know if i am cut out for this, half of my family have just walked out in the middle of lessons and what if i’m like them? i have been reading blogs, and talked to my parents and people have felt the same way and people are telling me to be more positive, i don’t think i’m gonna gel with my instructor? i dunno weather i want a female instructor, but i’m gonna have to work and be taught by males in life.
i have sat in the back yard with the car learning the gears since i was 14. i know them well, just never while moving. my parents say they will take me to a big car park at night when it’s quiet, but they haven’t put me on the insurance yet, they say i’m better with dual controls if i’m that nervous. urgh…. i just dunno it was’nt what i excpected he brought me to a quiet industrial estate but lorries kept over taking, and there was a kid playing on the grass. i think i just turned into a hermit and if i’m not happy next time i’m gonna tell him why. also it was only a clio but it felt massive! you have to pay for 4 hours upfront (because they are cheaper) but if i still feel this way after that i’ll just say i think i need a different instructor than my sister.